Annual Art Fight Dilemma
I'm not sure whether I should participate in Art Fight this year. Tried in 2024, while the theme was Stardust vs Seafoam. Despite hearing soooo many dramas from its community, that's not the reason I'm having doubts. Drawing is exhausting. Working on an artwork requires a whole day or two.. or three, I'm not even get paid.
Internet loves to throw the word "burnout". It's just that, drawing process doesn't feel exciting anymore. Feel like I already memorize every steps although my skill is reaching plateau. Sketching, doing lineart, coloring, rendering.. Messing around with CSS is my new indulgence.
Fear of Missing Out. The intention of the event is to connect otherwise too independent artists, meanwhile what I had experienced so far is unhealthy, low effort competition. Perhaps I'm being too negative today. Even back then, a pang of jealousy arose from my heart, my characters are sooo boring compared to many creators out there. In 2025 I hide them in archive, and absent entirely.
Everyone else doing it Bet. I need FOMO protection.
In term of art, my world is surrounded by darkness. Is it fatigue? Do I want to move on and live as regular person? Last monthly challenge I did was March Hotel, overwhelming yet fun. Because they had various challenges related to fundamentals. Oh, I feel weary from just imagining myself pushing through Art Fight. Holiday free of stress? Tomorrow the event gonna start, you want to miss entire month of grinding and hustling? Someone help me.