Constant Connection and Hipocrisy
Freelance studio work takes most of my attention and focus today. It's not like I don't have anything to discuss today. By fixing tiny details in an artwork, my brain is freed from shackles for once. Also chatting with someone tangible while rendering feels really nice. When I'm alone, past problems haunt me cruelly. It beats me over and over again.
First, why do we need to be constantly connected? Why do I need to answer a question from day job's overbearing coworker on weekend? What if they see me as an asshole just because I'm procrastinating on replying? Why can't you directly ask Boss for administration stuff? Then certain guilt about different problem, weights me down.
Online-wise, a person in Discord server sent an AI-generated comic on general chat. Told them I will take it down, and they went rampage calling everyone "exaggerating small thing" and "egoist". Head mod above me said that person was garnering sympathy but failed. Thinking about my last post, I feel like a hypocrite. As an art moderator, the responsibility falls upon me, yet actually most of the time I'm absent from daily patrol.
Again, why should we be connected every day and feel guilty not doing so?
Haah, I don't know. I tinker with AI for experimentation, not straight up replacing productivity. My insult towards that troublemaker after they left was "Elu kayak Dinas Pendidikan aja anjeng, pake AI melulu."
Raw anger that can't be translated into English, reflection of the reality I had witnessed. When one teacher used Gemini to generate student's farewell stickers, I couldn't insult her. Instead, arranging image elements with Canva stayed as my reliable process.
I don't understand. You can share a piece of information without AI tools, right? You can add real life photo of the object as illustration, search engine exists for this reason. Am I being "Not Like The Other AI Userβ’"? I acknowledge its loophole, not denying the fact that it scrapes datas from internet, often nonconsensual. I understand its yes-man tendency. AI generated image's same face syndrome scares me, everyone who used to look down at anime now running for the Kawai Uncanny Round Eyes style.
Also what if I speak too freely in The Net, people will go cancelling me? What if my presence is too negative so people are secretly blocking things with my name attached? WWW = Weekend with Weights.
Note: Pictures I attached above ARE from official Indonesian Government accounts.