This Week
Meh. This week is pretty cynical. I've seen "controversy" surrounding March, it's not like I can't sight the red flag in his writing since beginning. I like rude characters, in fact my favorite Sinner in Limbus is Heathcliff the Raging British Guy, but I don't like how the NPCs sugarcoating March. "He's just like that" or "He's actually nice". Bitch, make him fight with others. Heathcliff and Ishmael are always headbutting.
I said in previous post that I haven't logged in Limbus for a while. Yesterday, I did. Kid not, I ended up spending the entire day trying to achieve RR2 <150 turn. I used three teams for different run. My first attempt was Sinking (you know the meta Sinking team are mostly Walp identities + Udjat Outis lol). I was bored halfway and then ditched it after Cycle 3, so yesterday I continued. Thought after Cycle 4, we could head straight to the Boss and it would still count as Cycle 5. No, wrong. Round and round we go. ANOTHER NINE WAVES OF ABNOS.
Yeah. Second attempt was Middle team. Honestly I don't get the hype surrounding The Envy-Res team, despite completing Normal Reflectrial Lei Heng with them (I always do Normal... Hard mode? Fuck Limbus). I can't fight the boss because everyone died to Wrath flower. Third attempt, Burn+Tremor. They're ridiculously OP lol. Then the third run ended with 121 turns.
...Well, my purpose of writing this post is talking about changes regarding OCs, yet the tangent. Back to Field of Mistria. I was pretty disturbed with how similar Olric and Alaric name sounds like, and they're almost the similar trope.. himbo (except my Alaric won't talk about cool rocks 24/7). So I renamed them. I've been wanting to change their name since FOREVER, especially cough Charlie. Charlie can be found everywhere. Hazbin Hotel, Heartstopper, ... you name it. Just that, finding the name that fits their existing vibe is challenging. This is the push I needed, not to mention March resembles Charlie, scowling red head. What if the community stumbled upon my OC drawings and thinking I'm into some weird shit? Tuff.
Back to their own root, being Indonesian. Charlie's name is now Dirga, a name that popped up in my mind and he likes it. Alaric becomes Altair. I still want to keep the "Al" nickname, despite sometimes it's hard to differentiate if the font don't make distinction between I and lowercase L. Since my PC in Field of Mistria is based of him, seeing the NPCs calling him "Altair" kinda satisfying? Like, within in the universe finally he's not Olric's weird shadow lol. Altair wears glasses originally, but his in-game avatar is cuter if he wears goggles. Boy looks like real adventurer.
That's it.. I guess. About working, yeah. Usual. I've been wanting another side gig but not sure, last one was pretty time-consuming. Too hardcore. Back to solo career..? Uh. Man, dedicating time for something that won't produce money feels wasteful nowadays. "That's what hobby for". One side, I wish I have another skill that I could monetize. The other side, will I still draw if it's not for money? No, I think. Yet if I want to do art-related jobs, then I still need to draw beforehand. The snake eats its own tail.
I do realize that I have weird relationship with my own art. Should the answer to the question "I am incredibly bored with day job" is to find more work? Textbook definition of underwhelming burnout. Even during weekend I can't stop worrying, maybe when I had gig I was panicking to the point I forgot everything related to day job and it's somewhat lifting the weight from my shoulder?
Farming Sims is showing how fast the day pass, that's what I'm feeling right now. Focusing on one task, then suddenly it's 6 PM. God damn.